April 16, 2014
I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing
You told me you still want me and you don’t want to lose me again
We made plans to see eachother today
Now you’re late (I forgot how bad you are with fucking timing) and I got offered to go into work early
So we’re bailing on eachother I guess
What the fuck
Why am I crying over this
I just really wanted to see you
April 14, 2014
I heard from you. You said you think about me a lot and you’re not going to be a father anymore, but you’re still with her. I’m all over the place. We broke up because of this situation but it no longer exists, but I guess I can’t expect you to just come crawling back to me. I’ve been constantly telling myself that I just have to accept it and you’re doing what you think is best, but now what? I want you to be fucking happy and you said you’re not and we both fucking know that I could make you so fucking happy. I don’t want to persuade you to be with me because that’s fucking pathetic, but I want you to fucking be with me. I guess nothing has really changed… I gave myself all of this false hope, if the situation didn’t exist we’d be together. But now that it doesn’t, we’re still not, so I guess I just have to try to continue to move on. It just hurts all over again.
Everyone else can fuck off because I only want you. I only wanna be wanted by you.